work in progress

why dont you douse my dreams in gasoline and watch them light and burn they turn to ash and then you can toss them in the water

I...

Can't believe Obama. My fiancé and I are about to get married and we were going to try and start a family but I have never been so scared to bring a child into this world. Only God knows what the future holds and I will leave it all up to him. On a better note I'm so proud of Jeffery and I love him so much.

The Good Old Days

I miss they way things once were. being happy and carefree.there is no such thing as not growing up we all have to at some point. life sucks. i have no job. i need to do something amazing with my life what that is exactly i have no idea. i miss the old days. i miss all the things i used to do. i miss being able to skateboard and play soccer, smoke pot, jam out, go to the movies, no job, talking on the phone all night, innocent kisses, wearing my boy clothes and it being thought of as sexy, my skate shoes, being able to watch cartoons and not be called a loser, being able to have crazy hair colors, being able to chalk it up to being young, being skinny, having your heart broke because you fell in love with every boyfriend you had, i miss middle school, i miss the friends i had back then, i miss not having friends now everyone wants to use you now and if it doesn't help them then they won't bother with you, i remember my firsst boyfriend i never even kissed but just holding hands and hugging was enough back then but not now the world is so horrible now no one is innocent long anymore. i miss the good old days.

On..

a much lighter note. I am beginning to like this new apartment. And jeffs father whom he ahsnt talked to in 4 years and seen in 12 is coming to visit. Plus my birthday was yesterday. Happy 20th to me. I spent it with my family cause they mean the world to me.

To my dearest...

Grandpa. My "paw" as i call him passed away early morning August 18th. He was a good man a GREAT man who did worlds for his family, community, and country. I am thinking of writing a book with him in mind a great inspiration he is. Makes me proud to carry his name. To Glenn Oree Grantham you are in my heart forever. Not a day goes by without the thought of you. I am visiting Granny often. With the upmost love and endearment, Samantha Glenn Grantham.

So today...

we signed the lease for our apartment. yay. so moving time here i come.

also i have become very interested in the bioshock2 arg. awesomeness!!!

I played...

a somewhat scary game. Fun though. Its called ghostscape. look it up.